Disappear

It takes a while to see that maybe things aren't really what you want them to be. You can't push it to be that way, either. If it was meant to be, then it was meant to be. Well, you can't do a lot of things. You can't sit there & act like everything's okay. You can't make yourself like something that you don't like and you can't make something last that wasn't meant to last.

All good things come to an end.

You just can't ... Not when it's not one of those things that were meant to be. No matter how hard you try to keep it together & act like it's okay - it just simply won't be okay. It all falls down, in the end - sooner or later.

How much can you give before you get what you want?

I just decided to disappear for a little bit. It's time to focus on me because obviously being with so-called friends or a boyfriend isn't enough to keep me truly happy. I am not happy.

Build my walls back up, decorate my room, feel like me again, & maybe try to go back to the way that I felt before I found myself in this situation.