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Disappear

It takes a while to see that maybe things aren't really what you want them to be. You can't push it to be that way, either. If it was meant to be, then it was meant to be. Well, you can't do a lot of things. You can't sit there & act like everything's okay. You can't make yourself like something that you don't like and you can't make something last that wasn't meant to last.

All good things come to an end.

You just can't ... Not when it's not one of those things that were meant to be. No matter how hard you try to keep it together & act like it's okay - it just simply won't be okay. It all falls down, in the end - sooner or later.

How much can you give before you get what you want?

I just decided to disappear for a little bit. It's time to focus on me because obviously being with so-called friends or a boyfriend isn't enough to keep me truly happy. I am not happy.

Build my walls back up, decorate my room, feel like me again, & maybe try to go back to the way that I felt before I found myself in this situation.

Him.

"Is this gonna last? You're up on a pedestal; are we moving too fast? Feel like I'm in crazy competition with the past. That's why I gotta ask - is anything I'm done brand new?"

Okay, I've been telling myself that I gotta get through this, or out of this. Only two things I could do: Put myself through this, or leave. I feel like it's too early to make any decisions, but I know that I'll just irk the shit out of myself if I stay around & wait any longer. It's like, I want to wait, but I don't want to sit around & wait for no reason. You never know what's going to happen. I make myself look stupid & hung up on you when it's not likewise.

I know why I'm like this though. I know I am giving as much as I can to be the significant other to you, but I am giving myself to someone who's not even worth it. Why do I keep on holding on? I'm stupid, I know. It's harder than it looks, though! I know I'm not the only one whose been in this position. I mean, when you care for someone - you care for them. You can't help it, it's your emotions.

This nigga is SOOO CLUELESS though. Like, it's more than that - he's oblivious. Oblivious to the fact that I care for him more than he thinks, and I give more than what he deserves. I know I deserve better. Okay, I'm going to stop complaining because I'm the only one that puts myself through this.

See! It's times like these I wish I was heartless.
Fuck it,
Haha, I'll get through it. I always do.
SOONER THAN LATER: I'm going to be the one that's gone. That's a 110% sure fact. . & it is what it is. 'Nuff said. Goodbye2Usoon.

So here's another Dwele song, because I can't get enough of Dwele.
Weekend Love.
Whoever you are, wherever you are .. Enjoy!

I'll always care for you, no matter what*

Just hungry.

I am hungry for new music.
Hungry for a new lifestyle.
Hungry for new people.
Hungry for new surroundings.
Hungry for more blogging.

I haven't blogged at all lately. & before lately, that's how long it's been. So much has happened in so little time. I'll be back for more later, though.

Oh yeah ... Welcome 2010! I'm not quite sure how I think this year will go, but whatever happens, happens. I do know that it's def time for some BIG & BIGGER changes.

You can never go wrong with Dwele, so here's some lovin' for your ears. Whoever you are, wherever you are - enjoy.

got a lot to say. but so little time. be back soon!

loving lauryn hill's "i gotta find peace of mind"

this song makes me feel so serene.