My future plans weren't to join the military ... not quite yet anyways. The original plan was to go to New Mexico Military Institute and then get commissioned. Well, shit changes: Mom didn't want me to be so far. So, I said fuck it, I had been walking past that recruiting office for forever, working @ Northway Mall in Gottschalks. On my lunch breaks, regular breaks, and off work, I walk past that recruiting station wondering if that's what I should be doing? One time they even tried to pull me in there themselves, but I was on my break and I had to go back, no time for convincing Inmaly to join the Army. I knew that if I ever was to join, I wanted to do the Air Force, not the Army. The recruiting station was all the way on the othe side of town though, so it was hard for me to access that recruiting station. The Army station was just right there. So, I did it. I evn went through hell trying to pass that pee test! I swore in, signed my contracts, and now I'm off to Basic in a week.
I have the last minute jitters. Well, maybe not so last minute. It's the fact that I did everything so quickly. It all happened so quickly, I didn't think it would happen like that. For one, I didn't get the MOS I wanted, but I plan to change that as soon as I can. For two, I honestly think peoples' words are gettting to me about how I should have joined the Guard or the Air Force. I kow I have an advantage w/ the Guard because SSG Preito and MSG Nieves, I know them and they hook people up with jobs. & with the Air Force, everybody knows is better.
I feel like I made the wrong decison, joining the Army Reserves. I can turn back now, I haven't swore in and signed the final contract for the final time ... but I built myself up to leave, and now I feel this way? My instincts are strong, telling me something in this picture is wrong.
What the hell do I do?
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