sometimes i don't even know what to think anymore. i wish i knew what was running through people's minds. these days i catch too many who don't know how to jus be real & say it. "say whatcha need to say" as john mayer said.
i always feel like what i'm saying to this person isn't being believed. and i guess part of it is my fault cos of what happened before. but i really do find it hard to trust you again.
shit i ain't trying to get let down and/or fuck another friendship or relationship up. sorry i have problems of my own already. but it doesn't help that you and i don't see eye to eye on a lot of things & have two different mind sets.
i won't elaborate on that.
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i don't see the pretty side of you anymore. maybe the first night, cos there was that wonder lingering in the air & something just had to be done about it, but ... now? i feel totally opposite. like, i know i could have you but i don't want you cos you're not appealing to me anymore. i know your true colors, and they're ugly to me. i couldn't stand to be with someone who makes people feel low and disgusting about themselves. verbal abuse is way over the top. i'm glad your life is full of "entertainment", i would call it.
i'll just leave it at that.
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