Venting.

One of the things that hurts the most is being doubted by the ones that we call family. For me, I get irritated at the thought and action of even being doubted to begin with. Especially when you work so hard for what you want and need & when you've workED so hard for all the things you've accomplished. I know that I sure as hell have accomplished a lot for a person my age, I'm confident in that. I know I've done other things that most other teenagers haven't done. I know my future is bright, and I know that I have a lot in store for me. But my own family can't see that. My family's thoughts of me are clouded by ancient relic visions of what my sister USED to be. There is a pro & a con to being the youngest sibling of the family. The pro is that you get to learn from your older sibling's mistakes, but the con is that you're always being told to not be what or do what your older siblings have done that are considered "bad". Growing up, I've always had to deal with being told NOT to be like my older sister because she was the problem child out of the three of us. Right now, my plans for my future are all set. I know what I want to do, all I have to do is just ONE THING: Graduate. And I know for damn sure that I am going to graduate, on time, and even early if I really wanted to do it. It's sad to think that my family thinks the complete opposite. Simultaneously, I am driven to succeed even more and I am being pushed away from them. This is bad. I feel almost like I have to get revenge on everybody for doubting me to begin with! I'm tired of getting voicemails that say I'm out messing around, and I'm never going to graduate. I'm going to drop out of school. I'm going to get married at a young age. I'm tired of it. When I look around everyday and see WORSE kids than me. I may not be perfect, but I sure as hell am not a problem child. Even though I branch out & do things that aren't acceptable to my family, I still have my head on straight and I am responsible for the shit that I do. Call me bad, call me whatever you want. I know what I am and I know who I will be in the future. It's just too bad that all this bullshit and doubting me is bringing me down so bad that I don't even want to be around the family anymore, not that they are around. It just makes me not want to talk to anybody anymore. So don't be surprised if I never called you back or picked up your phone call. I'm tired of hearing negative shit from the people who are supposed to keep me positive.